You are everything you dream about and everything you hope for. You are, yourself, an embodiment of all that you pray for and everything that you fantasize about. In every thought, every dream, and every word spoken by you, you are stepping past yourself as you wander in search of that which you are. Stop searching.
We become addicted to our sadness because it makes us feel alive in a world where we feel dead inside.Feeling anything is better than feeling nothing.
We become addicted to our sadness because pain is beautiful.
There is no pain without passion and no heartbreak without love.
Our shared pain connects us and our compassion holds us together.
When I began my recovery journey, they told me that I had an eighty percent higher chance for long-term recovery if I did service work and focused daily on what I could do to help others. Since they also told me that only roughly one to two percent of us would ever recover, I decided that I needed all the insurance I could get. So, I did.
Many of us have had relationships with people who we love in a very powerful way. This love feels so strong that it feels like it could heal the deepest of wounds and save the most lost souls. We feel like we could move mountains with this love. And in some ways, we can. But in other ways, we cannot. It is our inability or unwillingness to accept this that leads us towards toxic relationships and away from self-love.
Eventually, no amount of music will be able to drown out the spirit screaming inside of us. Eventually, no amount of solitude will numb us from our world.
If you’ve been fighting and it hasn’t been working, it may be time to stop fighting and surrender. Because, in recovery, we ceased fighting everything and everyone.
Smoking cigarettes started for me when I was 14 and I smoked for 20 years. After 19 years of puffing a pack or more a day, I had never really ‘tried’ to quit smoking. I never tried because I am not the type of person who decides to do something and doesn’t do it. And I didn’t see the use in doing the whole — saying I want to quit and not quitting song and dance. I decided that I wasn’t going to try to quit until I was going to actually quit. As my children grew older and my cough in the morning grew rougher, I started to think more often about the health implications of my stinky and dirty habit. I could see how being a smoker was affecting the lives of my family and destroying my health.
Finding yourself in a toxic relationship does not mean your partner is toxic It is hard enough to know that we are in a toxic relationship, but once we have discovered this unhealthy dynamic, our mind’s next mission is to find out exactly who and what is to blame — for this toxicity we have discovered. Usually, weContinue reading “Toxic Relationships — Who Is The Toxic One?”
There is a bizarrely familiar and anesthetizing comfort lurking deep inside the sadness and discomfort of a wounded soul; that begs the heart to surrender to its paralyzing grip. The life-piercing pick of maddening malevolence, strums the broken strings of a tattered heart as consciousness begins to evanesce and slip.