You are everything you dream about and everything you hope for. You are, yourself, an embodiment of all that you pray for and everything that you fantasize about. In every thought, every dream, and every word spoken by you, you are stepping past yourself as you wander in search of that which you are. Stop searching.
Yes, I have wondered many times in the past decade if my hope for and faith in humanity is childlike and naive. Especially since March of 2020. But no matter how much ugliness I see, I still find so much beauty.
Everything we see wrong with the world, on some level, is rooted in our differences. This separation and division tramples over the age old wisdom that is, after all, the closest thing to ultimate truth we have. It tramples all over love.
I wanted a forever love that could withstand all conditions. I wanted a loyal and undying love — a love that was true when nothing else was. I wanted a love that would journey over mountains and across oceans to find its way — a love that stretched beyond eternity.
When I began my recovery journey, they told me that I had an eighty percent higher chance for long-term recovery if I did service work and focused daily on what I could do to help others. Since they also told me that only roughly one to two percent of us would ever recover, I decided that I needed all the insurance I could get. So, I did.
Even if you have never knowingly struggled with boundaries, you have engaged with people who do. Some people struggle to set and keep boundaries, while others do not respect the boundaries of others. In any case, if you dive beneath the surface, you will find the fear of rejection at the root of these common and debilitating character challenges.
We are something to many people. But there is literally not enough of you to be everything to everyone. Know this. Allow this knowing to go deep into your heart. Then, live by faith that everyone will find happiness in their own time. Believe that this will be the right time for them. Have faith, that through the guidance of your soul, you will help the right people at the right times. Let this be enough.
Some people will remain shitty people for the duration of their current life experience. I know there’s something good in them but I also know that it is not coming out any time soon. So although I see the light in you, we aren’t hanging out any time soon.
No matter who you are, where you go or what you do with your life, you will undoubtedly encounter some humans who are not at all “nice” to you. There will be people along your journey who appear to be filled to the brim with anger and hostility. No matter what the people around them do, they always seem discontent. Sometimes, they are mean to people for no apparent reason at all. And this hurts people.
It is NOT okay to invalidate the feelings of others by responding to their feelings with implications that they should feel differently. Yes, the power of our thoughts and attitudes is beyond parallel. Yes, having an attitude of gratitude is the best way to live. Yes, it is always valuable to find the silver lining. Pain is the touchstone of spiritual growth. Good comes from literally everything. Acceptance is key to living happily. We must remember a few things though.